As I trudged across the bitter cold campus today, while getting hit with miniature ice pellets, I made a serious attempt to see beauty in what was around me. Mostly I just wanted to walk in the silence, take in the moment, and be open to whatever God wanted to show me. Right as I started along the crosswalk I heard thunder and I could not help but stop and breathe a little slower. If I had not needed to get to class I might have just stood there in the falling ice listening to the melodious noise coming from the sky. All I could think of was the beauty of it and how it reminded me so much of God and His attributes.
Snow, ice, sleet coupled with thunder, and later even lightening. Soft and dangerous. Chilly and electric. God is both loving and just. Merciful and jealous. This somewhat reminds me of Aslan in the Chronicles of Narnia series, in that he is described as not being safe but being good. The more I get lost in the pursuit of knowledge of God I cannot help but notice how to my human mind He seems to have contradicting attributes. If there is any being that can actually have such “contradictions” it is definitely (or is it more correct in this case to say ‘indefinitely’) God.
Reflecting back on my education, specifically philosophy, I remember how I was told that even God is bound by logic. This always greatly disturbed me. If God is indeed bound by logic that just seems to put Him in an itty-bitty, not-so-powerful, non-unique box. May I never strip God of the mystery, glory, and perfection that He is much more than due. I do not even want my narrow conceptualization of Him to become an idol in comparison to the Truth that He is.
We shall never grasp Him, even remotely. Yet our lives are to be lived in heightened pursuit of knowing, loving, and following Him. We cannot attain, but we must continue on our journeys to grow. Why? A multiplicity of reasons, but perhaps one of the most important is that He deserves such devoted worship of our entire lives and infinitely more.
